Aw!!

Today has been a wonderful day! A loooong tiring day, but it has ended in such a good place. I had a calculus exam today, so I have literally been doing math from the moment I woke up (9:00am) till 4:30pm. That is a whole lot of math. My brain actually feels fuzzy after. And then, as soon as I get home, I have to get onto doing readings, and workshop prep. The workshop is on Saturday.

So, I was feeling kind of "bleh", you know? Just energetically low and then two things happened to really elevate my mood.

a. A lady registered into my workshop after hearing about it from a friend. She had accidently forwarded me the mail her friend sent her, and I read it (eek!! hey, i thought it was for me!) and her friend had said "I wanted to go camping this weekened but it got cancelled, which is actually something I am really relieved about because now it means i can attend this workshop. I've attached the details to the email. Apparently this girl is only 20 years old and I have heard amazing things about her!!!"

I was like....AW! *sends out gratitude into the universe*
And what happens when you send out gratitude into the universe? Well you get more things to be grateful for:


b. I went to check my mail to pick up any registrations for the workshop (5 more!) AND there was a little letter for me (I've attached the picture up top) and a CD from a client of mine!

I am sure you can read it yoruself but
OMG!

Getting nice mail like that can ONLY make you feel amazing.



So now I am in a great mood.
So let this be a reminder to you: if you are feelign energetically weak, in the need of some uplifting, don't be afraid to ask, AND make sure the universe knows what you are grateful for.


i'm grateful for you.
love you

First private consultation

Wow, the month of july has been so busy for me, business wise:

It's july 8th and I've done 11 readings already! That used to be my goal for a month. I wanted to do 10 readings a month. I have:

27 readings booked
The workshop!
16 private consultations booked!


Whew that is a lot of work. And today is one of those very lonnnng and stressful days. I just had a reading, followed by calculus from 11:45-4:20 (SO much math - it is going to hurt. Like have you ever done so much math at one time that it actually makes your heart hurt? I have. Last night. And today as well, apparently. And I LIKE math a lot! But when you do it for a few horus in a row, I feel an actual physical pain in my head. Like my brain is shutting down :( )

And then I have my first private consultation from 6:30-7:30pm!

FOLLOWED BY math homework, studying for math test, website and workshop prep.

Sometimes my days are so jampacked I don't even know how to make it through! It can be kind of difficult waking up in the morning and having a schedule that takes you up till about midnight every night. Oh well, I do what I gotta do


<3 time for calculus!

Having your own business

Why it rocks:

- You get to think about it all the time
- You can be as creative as you like in doing what you love
- People seek you out because you are an expert in your field.
- You are your own boss.
- You work when you can/want to work!
- You can give yourself a pay rise whenever you want.
- You get so much support from the community.
- People work around YOUR schedule.
- You always get love-emails in your inbox
- If you do good work, you are trusted and appreciated.
- You get to meet soooo many AMAZING and interesting people.
- You get to help so many people.
- You get to do what you love every single day.


Harder parts:

- You have to think about it all the time
- Your inbox is permanently full
- If you do bad work, your reputation is instantly destroyed and it takes a LOT to get it back.
- Demand always exceeds the product (At least in my case).
- Some customers can over step the professional boundary and you have to learn how to deal with that.
- Bad readings = yuck.
- You have to be professional at all times.
- You have to be good with the other aspects of business too, such as finances which isn't always the most fun thing ever.
- There is always a possibility that doing the thing you love every day, can, at times make it "work".

my evening

this is what my evening looks like:

1. calculus.
2. workshop content - content / e-mails / arrange meeting with graphic designer/ plan
3. website content - YAYness.

first meeting

today i had my first meeting with heather, my business manager, and it was just wonderful. We have formulated a kick-ass business plan for myself, and i am excited to put it all into action.




Readings:

- Right now the waiting time is just ridiculous. If someone was to book with me last week, they would not be able to get a slot until the second week of July!
- I am raising my rates to $100 for a one hour session, effective from July.
- Participants of my July/September workshop will get a preferred rate of $85 for a one hour reading.
- Old clients will get a preferred rate of $85 till september 2010.


Private consultations:

- I will be begin offering private consultations as a service beginning in July 2010.
- A one hour session will be $100, and you will be booked for a 4 session/6 session period.
- You may choose to meet once a week/ once in two weeks/ once a month.
- Each session will end in a 15 minute quick reading.


Psychic Essentials - and intensive psychic development workshop:

- Preregistering will being this coming week.
- Tentative date of July 17th.
- Full amount must be paid by July 12th.
- Will be a fully catered event!
- IT'S GOING TO BE AWESOME
- Have contacted an amazing graphic designer who will be designing the kick-ass posters for this amazing event.
- Will take place at the let's move yoga studio.

Three sessions:
- Kamloops July
- Kamloops September
- Vancouver September


- If you recommend a friend to come to the workshop, you will get a preferred rate of $65 on your next reading with me (that's 45$ off!)


www.malavika.ca and blog!:

- I finally purchased the domain name and have found two amazing web designers for a very reasonable price.
- That should be up and running before the end of the summer.

Youtube:

- Guess who is getting back on youtube! Meeee :)

Other:

- India in August!
- Ireland in september!
- I have supa sick. and not in the good way.
- I love you all so much!
- I got A+ in both my classes :) Psych and english.

The Wellness Festival of AWESOMENESS

It was just a spectacular event, unlike anything I have experienced before. I can tell my work is stepping onto a whole new level. I will try to be organized with this.

Readings:
I was booked all day, non stop. I cut down reading lengths to only 20 minutes and literally did not get time to breathe inbetween readings. I wasn't planning on going in tomorrow, but because I had such a ridiculous line up, I said I would <3 I'm booked up for tomorrow already too!
AND, I was very accurate so I am very proud of myself.

My class:
The class I taught had...brace yourself...over 60 people! I couldn't believe my eyes. I was the biggest workshop of this weekend, there was like nobody left in the other rooms. Everybody was there! This was the largest audience I spoke in front of but I loved every minute of it. If anything, my voice was a little bit sore from doing endless hours of readings. The funny thing is a couple of my clients had told me they would be attending the class, so I was just trying to count in my head how many people I knew/thought would come and I was like "...5 that's a decent number!" and then BAM over 60!


Upcoming workshop:
I have 31 people signed up for my next full day workshop! 31!!! And these are ALL new clients, meaning I have not even asked my regulars yet, so I am expecting over 40 people. Because this is such a big number, I obviously can't do the workshop at home any more so I am moving to renting a huuuuuuuge studio space! AND it will be catered. WHY? Because finally I have the money to do that!


Business cards:
I bought 50 business cards and they were gone so quickly I had to start handing out my magazines with my contact details on it <3


Random:
Everybody seemed to really enjoy their readings/class. A strange thing happened. A man, who seemed to be very intuitive and connected, approached me, held my hand (TOTAL STRANGER btw) and said "I want you to know that you have been chosen to do amazing things with your life, and i want you to know that you are a rising star and many many people in this world will know of you." and then he gave me a crystal!

Needless to say, I was speechless.


Whew, it's been a looooong day. And I still have to:

- Write an english essay
- Read over 100 pages of my english novel
- Read and study chapter 7 of psychology
- Reply to e-mails.

Ahhh the joy of being a student.

<3 love
m

news and updates

life has been so busy recently, and it doesn't seem like i'm going to catch a break anytime soon, so i better get used to it! i never thought it would be like this. well, i guess i wanted all of this, but i never thought about the "consequences" of being so busy. i wanted the dream, i didn't necessarily always account for the hard work that would go into living the dream. so here i am. learning the hard way, believe me. the hard way, the magical way.

here is some exciting news and updates about my work:

- My first private workshop of the year was a total success. I had 12 participants. It was a wonderful, wonderful day. I actually shocked myself with how "psychic" I am (thank you miss prescot.) - Especially when you are with a group of people you have promised that you will teach them how to be "psychic", it really doesn't say too much about the host, if she isn't very accurate. BUT, alas, I was. Phew! I even startled myself a little bit. But all in all, it was fantastic. Here are some of the anonymous comments I have gathered about it:

The following are the testimonials the co-ordinator of this workshop recieved:

" I was so blown away by Malavika, what an amazing, amazing young lady. She's just such a breath of fresh air!"

"What an incredible day! Thank you so much for organizing it so well and for including me in the group. I have a thundering headache and some mixed up feelings to sort out with my guides. I hope I can connect with them asap.

To say Malavika is astonishing is hardly a big enough word. She has truly inspired me to wake up. I will be spending the night reviewing the day, that is for sure."

"That Malavika is a beautiful spirit just like you guys."

And here is some that I received:

"

Hi Malavika,

thank you again for an amazing full day of learning. I hope you have rested and feel refreshed.

This is a reminder to please make me a copy of the 3rd eye meditation. I feel that it will be very helpful for me!

I really appreciate you doing this for me :)

Have a wonderful weekend!"

"

Hi Malavika,

I just wanted to say it was a pleasure meeting you yesterday at Carols. You're one very talented young lady with an amazing psychic gift.

"


" For me, the workshop had tremendous value and you presented it well. The workshop was fun, organized, interesting, challenging and provided me with another insight as to how little I know and how much there is to learn, very exciting!!

THANK YOU "




*BIG SMILES*


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Other:

- By request, I will be selling my first guided meditation CD! WOOOOOOOOP!
- By request, I will be setting up private consultations with clients interested in developing their psychic ability. I will set up a planned schedule of sessions for you to work with me one-on-one, instead of in a group. This is similar to a workshop, but it is over a space of a few weeks, and it is one on one.
- I'm in the works of planning 2 workshops before I move ooOoh!
- My next workshop will be fully catered! We're moving up in the world, people. The malavika team now has a chef, lulz.
- On my show on thursday, I am interviewing the lovely Elizabeth Beeds. Editor of The Yoga Tree.
- This satuday is teh wellness festival where I will be doing drop-in readings all day, AND teaching a FREE psychic development class (45 mins) for you guys :)
- The folowing saturday I have been asked to give readings at teh Kamloops Relay for Life Cancer society!
- I have 10 readings booked for this month ALREADY, and it's only the 1st!!

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Other other:
- I painted my finger nails blue, and my toenails pink and yellow and I am very pleased with it.
- I am SUPA hungry.
- I got 95% on my psychology exam!



Life is wonderful. I am happy with things, although things are happening scarily fast. I miss matthew so much :( I want more time with him but he's in Qatar and the time difference and everything is so yuck.
I wish I could write more but I fear my fingers will drop off.

one of those weeks

This is just one of those weeks that makes me nervous to even think about it. It's crazy when so many things can be condensed into just one week - 7 days - and you wonder if are going to make it out alive. And of course, you always do, and it's over very quickly, but while it happens, it feels bottomless, endless.
this week, i have:

1. Finish novel for English (on page 135/320)
2. Study chapters 3,4 and 5 psychology.
3. Psychology exam on Thursday.
4. Start English research assignment.
5. PSYCHIC ESSENTIALS WORKSHOP on Friday!
6. Finish prep for the workshop (GOD, this stresses me out right now - There is so much to do it is ridiculous eg - content, supplies)
7. Organize around 50,000 readings.
   

I am not doing the show this week, which feels good because it's like a weight off my chest. I'll be back on air next thursday with a lovely interview with a client, and good friend, Arlene Soloman!

Vancouver was lovely. Shopping makes me so happy, it should be illegal.











i could drink his voice up

she's so pretty and she's so sure

Ok. Deep breaths. It's time to re-group. I know it seems like in all my recent posts, all I seem to talk about is how a lot is happening and I am not in control of these things. Well, that's how I feel. It really is overwhleming sometimes. Especially when it feels like I am continually not getting anything done, and my to-do list and inbox keeps getting bigger and bigger.
As Miss Prescot says - 'Either keep up, or back down.'
And I so want to keep up because, as I keep reminding myself, I want this. I just want this organized. I don't want this disorganized. I don't want this the way it is now because I am not able to give it my best.

To do:

- See English proff and try to make sense of stupid assignment that I really do not understand at all.
- English class till 10:00pm
- Do English assignment.
- Read chapter 3 psychology for class O_O
- E-mails: Respond to: Business advisor/ Workshop facilitator/ Relay for life coordinator/ Wellness festival coordinator/ Do reading follow ups / Client
- Update my reading schedules and finances.
- Interview questions for show - E-mail to carol.
- Read English required reading.
- Prep the workshop O_O


I was today asked to be apart of the Relay for Life event in Kamloops for people suffering from cancer! I am so humbled. They saw my article in the Yoga Tree and wanted me to come along. YAY.

I know I know.
Keep up or back down.

Time for starbucks before class to calm me down.

say what you need to say

"and so i sent some men to fight,
and one came back at dead of night,
said he'd seen my enemy,
said he looked just like me"


So guess what? I made the cover of The Yoga Tree! And I am so overwhelmed by everyones support. Thank you, thank you, thank you. You can read the magazine online at: www.yogatreebc.com.

Other than that, life has been so busy. Every day is full of: psychology, english, preparing and interviewing potential guests for the radioshow, e-mail correspondence, readings, organizing the workshops, and organizing my speaking events in kamloops!

It really is crazy how busy life can get. Sometimes it's hard to stay on top of things but tomorrow is always another chance to start things over. and that is what i am going to do because that is what i have to do O_O

at the beginning

this is the best place to start. this post will serve more as a reminder to myself, an eloquent to-do list. this is what is happening; i am getting behind on my readings, because i keep telling myself i will read my assigned literature readings for class in the 30 minutes before my sleeps. and finally, one week into my condensed summer semester, i realize that this will not suffice. i will barely make it through the three novels i have to read in 3 weeks if i do it that way. i guess i will have to set aside reading time every day. i am looking forward to reading on the road by jack kerouac but some of the short stories that are required are so boring to read. and then i have to make sense of it, and i don't want to because i don't want to kill it. reading can be a chore. and i love reading to death.

i had a consultation with a potential business coach and yes, i am going to do it! i'm super excited. it feels right, and it resonates with me on so many different levels. throughout my work these last 2 years, i've had the oppertunity to meet many different people doing many different things. and many of them have asked to work with me, to collaberate with me, and have humbly offered their services to me, and while i am honored to be the recipient to these kind gestures, i have never followed through. i am really picky when it comes to what i allow into my life. i am open and free and wide and giving when it comes to you. i will give you readings. i will love you. i will do what you want. i will make your life rich and empowering. and its not to say that i am a skeptic, but i guess i am "hard to impress", even in the realms of spirituality, which seems strange given that what i do is give spiritual readings. and there have been people who have come into my life and said "i can make you huge if you follow my lead" - perhaps not in those words preciesly- but more or less. and i never fell for it. it never convinced me. because there are a few things i knwo for sure about my life, and my future, and one of them is what my guide told me. she said "Malavika, your successes will come from your own work. You will not be carried into fame and fortune on the back of another individual. You must know this." and those words ring so true to me that i make my own good lucky, and i experience my own miracles.

and a business coach is not someone making me successful. she calls herself "robin" to my "batman" and i love that connection. this feels so right on so many different levels and it just resonates so deeply within me, and i am thrilled to take this next step.

a lady i met the other day requested an exchange with me - where i give her a reading in exchange for her services to me. she is a foot reflexologist, and i had a brief session with her yesterday and i did enjoy it. probably because i have a foot fetish and i believe there is nothing more comforting than having my feet held. But I'm strange.
I don't accept many exchanges in my work - mostly because it's about finding a balance and i have to weigh out the pros and cons. do i even want their service? will it enrich my life? is it equivelent to a reading? there are many questions, but i like this lady and i like my feet being touched.

but i think i will give my mom the reflexology session as a mothers day part 3, gift. she likes people touching her feet too.


i feel as though i am transforming. i have class tonight at 7.

in the end i want to be standing at the beginning with you.

sleeps

i am sleepsy. sleepsy. sleepsy. sleepsy. Who has a class that finishes at 10:00pm. Really? Who does that.

matthew and are going to be on our best behaviour for the next 21 days. it's kind of like a relationship detox. i am so looking forward to it. we are usually pretty great to eachother, but sometimes we take eachother for granted.

it's been a long time since i have been this tired.

psychic essentials is on the 28th of may. i am looking forward to it, and still developing content for it.
radioshow tomorrow :)
i've already had e-mails regarding readings from my latest ad in the yoga tree. that was fast! it's only been out barely one day.
i feel nauseous. it's not a very good thing to talk about but that is what on my mind. i like all my classes.

it really is time for me to sleeps.

a business coach and first day of school

i start the summer semester today. i have psychology today from 7:00pm till 9:50pm. silly night classes. i guess it's nice in a way because it means i have the whole day to be summer. but it also means i have to get used to studying during the day, rather than at night time.

auntie colbie and uncle tuff are coming over soon to play with april (their adopted niece). it will be really nice to see colbie. it's been a while. she's moving back to sicamous for the summer, but will be back in the fall.

i am getting a business manager/coach :) i've never really had someone work with me before, so this is a big step in the life of malavika. celebration time!

i'm going to make this summer such a rockfest <3

pale milk and rose

a tea party. milk and air and roses. white roses. i know what you are made of. you are all heart and bone and skin. you are colour, pale shades of pink and i remember milky mornings with you in my back yard watching the sun rise over the moutains.

and i have realized that i will go wherever you take me. what can i give you now, now that i have given you everything? i need a clear start. a new start. a new beginning. something fresh and clean and white and sincere. i smell like roses and dusk today. i am thinking of golden light. i just want to make something beautiful.

there is so much to be :)

psychic essentials - invite only

This is the first draft of my Psychic-Essentials poster. This is a private, invite-only workshop hosted by a client. It is my first private workshop. So far the count is 11 people! I plan to re-offer this workshop to both Vancouver City and the rest of the Kamloops public in September.

Z'omg doesn't it sound exciting? On some weird level I kind of wish I wasn't teaching it, and I was instead a participant. It's a good feeling. It means that it's going to be good enough for me, and I am hard to impress when it comes to workshops and 'Psychics'. And if it's good enough for me, it's good enough for you!

It is going to be so wonderful. Everyone will get a Connecting with you guides Kit (made up of crystals and incense and other wonderful things) and a moleskine journal! I love moleskine. om nom nom. OH, and pretty hand outs too.

matthew says

some delightful quotes that made me smile a lot.

matthew: what should i get my mom for valentines day.
me: um...hopefully nothing
matthew: i meant mothers day

me: hide the krispy kreme so that nobody feels tempted to break into the car.
matthew: get out of the car. i don't ever wanna hear those words come out of your mouth ever again.

matthew: *making fun of how annoying i am.* god baby, sometimes you are just so annoying it just feels so hopeless, you're like 'baby baby scratch my creep hand! oh no, oh no, you hurt it! baby, baby, do you know what a bebesaurus is? No Mally I do not. YES Yes you do, it's a bebe and a dinsaur. you use it all the time. Do you know what a bebe is?! No Mally, I don't. Yes you do.'

Well most of that quote probably won't make sense to you but it made me cry from laughing so hard in the middle of the mall. I'll try to explain. On my hand I have this random little callous that hurts and feels so good when he scratches it. I always make him do it and he calls it my "Creep hand" LOL. And then one day he scratched it so much that the next day it hurt so I told him it hurt. And the other thing is that I call him bebesaurus all the time and he doesn't like it very much and he was recreating a conversation we had earlier where I asked him if he knew what one was and he denied and i told him it was a mix between a bebe and a dinasaur and he claimed he didn't know and I asked him if he knew what a bebe was and he said he didn't and i told him he used it all the time and he said that was a lie and then i realized it was :(

what hurts the most

matthew is gone and i am alone. i am just m now. i know these things and i know why i have to do them. i am just hoping that one day everything will come together in a beautiful way and we will sit and stare and say "oh, my". if only we could see, if only we could see. i am lucky to have someone who never wavers the strength of our relationship. he doesn't want me to go, but he wants me to live my truth. he doesn't question our relationship, where it is, what we are, or where we are going. obviously, circumstances are not ideal, but i think it's a test, and more than anything else, i know there is a reason.

when he left, i curled up in his bed and smelled his skin beneath the sheets. i miss him.

i kept telling myself that in a few days the craziness will begin, but i was wrong. it has already started. but my god, it is a good kind of crazy. the kind of crazy that sends waves of energy pulsating through my very being and i feel so alive.

Firstly, my radioshow is getting a make over. I'm going to pack in as many interviews as I can. I want to go out with a bang. The next interview will be on the 13th of May. It will be an interview with a client and friend of mine, who overcame an abusive relationship. We will be talking about domestic violence and her story. It is very inspiring, and I hope you can all be a part of this with us.

Secondly, I am taking part in an open day for a local yoga studio to meet more peeps. thats right, i just said the word 'peeps'. I am really excited. 20 minute reading for $25. come and see me, please.

I have to be in Ireland by the 10th. I return from India on Sept 1st, and I plan on hosting two workshops in the spaces inbetween. It will be very packed but this is a gift for myself. this is what i love to do.

School starts on Monday. I am taking psych, chem, calc and english. I am looking forward to it :)

I love my baby April. We went for a run today. UPHILL. I think it's safe to say that we both almost died. She is so cute when she runs. She looks at me while she runs, so she keeps bumping into me. I am like "BABY! Look where you are going you silly baby". I was dressed so inappropriately for a warm day. I was wearing jeans, a thick shirt, a leather jacket and my coat. I had to strip down mid way up hill. I came home, and she collapsed on the cool garage floor and slept. i don't want to leave her.

i gave a freeeee reading today. it feels SO good to do that :) i aim for 2 a month.

something i realized about relationships. That you have to work to make them work. that a relationship is not some eternal commitment that everything will remain the way it is. that it is made up of moments, and every day is a new beginning, a new moment, a new chance to be the partner you want to be. our relationships must constantly evolve, they must constantly be refreashed for them to survive in this jungle. it is so naive to make a commitment and expect it to be carried through eternally. that isn't how it works. every moment is a chance to turn it all around.


i love you all
m

i'm 20

i turned 20 on the 22nd of april. thank you for the birthday wishes. I do feel truly blessed and i try to greet each day an unyielding reverence for life and how big and all encompassing it is. It feels both strange and the same to be 20. i am infinitely motivated to make something of myself, to do something with the resources I am given. i want to make fire. this is what you look for in the dark.

a lot has been happening and not happening. Matthew has been here and it's amazing and also disconnecting. i don't know how to explain it. i explained it to him just now. he is sitting next to me. i think he understands. that's one thing i value deeply about him. he doesn't always need an explanation. he usually just knows. my life feels still. it's a fleeting feeling.

I met with the publisher of the yoga tree and she asked if could use a picture of ME as the cover of the next issue. i was completely taken a-back. I'm gonna be a cover girl <3 I submitted some possible cover suggestions, and all of them involved my photography that was littered with a theme of spirituality and wellness. I also didn't use any photographs that depicted a models face because after looking at previous covers it seemed that they valued anonymity and conceptualization above all. I sent one photograph of myself to placed specifically in the ad-space I bought for myself, and she told me she chose that one to make the cover. i don't know how it will feel to see my face on a magazine cover. we'll find out soon, i guess.

so, i'm 20 and people are telling me this is just the beginning. and in a way, it does feel like the beginning. it feels like the begining of something big and bright and beautiful. i am different in a lot of ways. there are so many things that make me different from who i was, but one thing that stands out to me today, from who i was, is that i am no longer afraid of taking new oppertunities and squeezing all the juice of them. i very rarely turn down an oppertunity to grow, to see, to learn, to love, to be afraid, to expand, to laugh, to live, to try, to fly.


this is just the beginning.

no, you won't

april and mommy

This is a painting that Matthew and I painted yesterday. It is not finished yet!

This is april and her mommy

ice cream cake

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I will update more tomorrow. We have been having a wonderful time. Cuddles, cake, puppy-walking, cooking, movies. When I can write again, I'll tell you about it. I bought a new deck of tarot cards that I fell in love with. If you know me at all, you will know how rarely I find a deck I adore.

I never want to let you go.
I won't keep secrets.

an acceptance letter

So it turns out I was accepted into medical school in Ireland. The university of Galaway or something like that...Mixed feelings. I don't want to go, even though it means I will be closer to my friends from England. I still don't want to go. I like my life here, and everything here. I like the people here and my friends here and my home here and matthew here and school here and coffee here and life here. But at the same time, now that I have been accepted it's almost expected that I go. No one would force me but it is "highly recommeded". And I know that if I don't go there will always be that "Oh things would have been so much better if you had just gone to medical school in Ireland and gotten it done faster, noob" cloud looming over me. A cloud made up of my parents and more scarily, myself. I don't know. I'll do what feels right and I know it will be the best thing for me. I feel very supported by my guides, so I know I do not really have to worry.

matthew missed one of his flights. he's going to get here a little later than expected but i don't care. at least he is here :)

if we ever meet again

if we ever meet again,
i'll stop talking
you'll keep secrets
i'll never be the same

Matthew gets here tomorrow! I am really excited about it but there is so much to get ready before then. I am making him a nice big pitcher of lemonade because he loves lemonade. I leave in half an hour to get my legs waxed and my eyebrows threaded. We are taking April with us because she would tear our house apart. When we get home, Kiran should be home to babysit, and we will go get our grocery shopping done. I am sooooo happy with myself because I found my dream recipie. It's a cajun chicken pasta dish from the restaurant Chilis (Best place zevers z'omg.) So I am going to make it one of these days. Fingers crossed it turns out as spectacular as it does when matthew and I eat out there.

Mike, Colbie and Tuff are coming over to play with puppy and me :) 3 new reading bookings. Machoo coming tomorrow. 9 new clients this month already. workshops coming up. School starting in a month and I get to take more math yayyyyyy and organic chemistry next fall! Woo hoo. Life is looking up.




This is not the actual video but if you can watch the actual video, check out how amazingly BEAUTIFUL Katie Perry looks.

gasoline

After my radio show yesterday I spent some time with Rick and Mike. Rick and I attempted to play call of duty ( I mean, rick played, and I attempted), but I really am so awful at first person shooters. Mike had been wanting to see me after I spent time with Rick, but I wasn't planning on going as I was starting to feel nauseous again. Once I made up my mind to see Mike (they both live in the same building) I texted him and asked him if now was a good time (as I told him I would let him know later) and he texted back saying "Oh I'm busy now, sorry" to which my mind made a "pfft" noise. A couple of seconds later he texted me again and said "Haha joke, come soon!!!" so I though "Aha, two can play at that game, Michael" and put on my sneaky cap. I took the elevator to his floor and waited outside his room and said "Sorry Mike, can't make it after all. Maybe another time ;)" And then I knocked on the door and surprised him and he was so surprised and said it was a double trick and "touche". Usually, I am not very good at playing pranks. They always backfire in a bad way. Like the time when I put cling film on the toilet seat one april fools, and a 4 year told attempted to pee on it, got confused, played around in it, got it all over the bathroom, and I had to clear it up. I was proud of myself for the stleathy execution of this Michael prank though. Anyway, at Mike's we listened to the entire album of Daisy and he told me that I was daisy today because I was wearing a yellow shirt and a yellow flower in my hair. He looked at me at one point and said "You know, they wrote this song about you." and I said "Oh, really?" and he said "Well, who else could it have been about? I guess it could have been about someone that they know, but I really doubt it" and we both laughed. We got his pastels out and made art together. I drew the number 2, and a sunset, and an eye, and a bright red cage with naked women inside it. We ate grapes and drank ginger and pear tea. I don't really like tea. It's just hot bitter flavoured water.


It has been so long since I've been to starbucks, it scares me a little bit.

I've been working on my article for the yoga tree today. They will be using my photography as a future cover. I'm excited for that. The article I am writing is "6 things I've learned from being a psychic".

Now I am just ploughing through a list of things I need to get organized before school starts.

The malavika show:
I have so many amazing people who are very excited to be interviews on the Malavika show. The reason I have not started full speed with interviews yet is because I don't feel like the show has enough listeners for the interviews to be totally beneficial to the public. I am working at reforming this completely. How? Through some exceptional advertizing and powerful intention.

- Advertise in The yoga tree/ The art we are / Around school
- Set up interviews


Psychic Essentials Private workshop - May 28th
This is my first private workshop for a regular client. It is a smaller event held at her place with a minimum of 9 people.

- Create kick ass posters and send to client.
- Create workshop.

Psychic Essentials Kamloops workshop - June 12th
Intensive How-to-give-yourself-and-other-people-readings-workshop. Full day event at $120 per person.

- Distribute posters
- Advertise from week of April 18th+ via e-mail/facebook/phone/the yoga tree

Psychic Essentials Vancouver workshop - Date to be determined

- Advertise via e-mails/facebook/phone/conference in vancouver

The Yoga Tree

- Article '6 things I've learned from being a psychic'
- Cover photography
- Advertising my readings, The malavika show, and upcoming Kamloops workshop. 1/2 page spread.

Wellness Festival - June 4th-June 6th

- Offering mini readings (20 minutes) each day at a reduced rate than my standard!
- Givng a speach ($10 admission!!) and teaching a mini class.
- Offering a 30 minute reading with me to the raffle prizes at a standard value of $43!
- Come and say Hi. My table is gonna be real pretty <3
- Will advertise radioshow, readings, and upcoming Psychic Essentials Kamloops here!

Motivational Workshop Kamloops:

Thompson Rivers Unversity: FOR STUDENTS! (Cheaper) Fall 2010. Held through the universities Wellness Center.
Kamloops: Fall 2010. Offered to the rest of Kamloops.


Readings:

-Must book in 7 more readings. Current waiting time is around one week.

this wednesday, next wednesday matthew

Matthew will be here next wednesday. I've noticed that everytime we are about to see eachother, we both are so busy in the week or so prior. Not that I have been very busy recently, unless you call puking all day being busy. Matthew is going to be an engineer. I'm really happy about that because he is really happy about that. We call each other and talk about math problems, because that's what we do. He has a quick wit and a sharp mind. That's one thing I have loved about him from the start. He never stops making me laugh. And our communication is amazing. I think it's so easy to talk to him because he makes it so easy for me. He's always very supportive of me, and what I do, and what I think, and what I believe in. It really rocks my world (in a good way) to have someone believe in me the way he does.
I cannot wait to see what we will discover.

Tomorrow I need to make sure I finish my article for the next issue of the yoga tree. There is so much to do, and it is so much harder to do them now that I have April to babysit almost constantly. I love her but I am scared I am allergic to her beautiful self. I'm a bad mommy. We will have to see. If it persists I may have to give her away
I have my radioshow tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. Everyshow is exactly what I need to be talking about, exactly what I need to be doing, exactly what I need to hear.

i love you all more than you know

a brief history of the last 20 minutes

My new and first business cards :)
Most people who do what I do tend to call themselves "spiritual healers" or "intuitive readers" or "spiritual consultants", so I want to step away from the norm and call myself a straight up psychic. There's no need for elaboration. I am what I am.

I've always been a diary-junkie. Ever since I was 8, I've kept some form of journal. They were all boring, at times mildly amusing, but mostly a drag. Until I turned 14 and fell in love for the first time and then I turned 16 and experienced my first real heart break. - yeah, that's when things on Livejournal got really interesting. But now I've been converted to blogspot, and I think I prefer it. I like how you can customize each post to how you want it to be. And I like that uploading images is so easy. My journals always feel so incomplete without pictures. My hands are cold.

Mike just called me. He said he was biting his lips and thinking of me. He said it's hard not to talk to me and it's hard to talk to me.
James contacted me yesterday to see if we could be "friends". This has got to be the most polite bootycall ever. I guess, kudos to him for that. I have a colourful taste in men. And by colourful, I don't mean bad, by any means. Just colourful. Interesting.

I feel really awkward writing about this here. I'm not sure why. It's like I am crossing some imaginary boundary that has been placed around me. I feel like I shouldn't be talking about "things like that", but "things like that" happened and i happened. Because hey, things have gone wrong in my life, but I know that without a doubt, when they do, they always end up right. But there are definitely moments of "wrongness". I'm just not used to writing about them. Not anymore at least.

But, I'm too restless and nauseous to mull over that now.

m

this is what this is

Let me tell you what this is, so that our expectations, our universes, are parallel. we will never touch. this is a personal blog. this is a blog where I will talk about my dead days, my bleach days, my beach days. This is a blog where I will talk about my awkward feelings about my blossoming world. One day, (as soon as I have my website made) I will write a blog that maybe will help you in some beautiful way. I will write about my life doing what i love to do every day. But until that day comes, i will tell you my stories. my stories and photographs about real things, imaginary things, dream things.

So, let me start with my day. It was a nothing day, so I guess that means there is not much to write about. I have been all hot and sick the last few days. Re-scheduling readings hasn't been too awful, especially since my clients are so understanding. They are my friends. Though I rarely remember readings, for that moment, it's like I become their life. I see so much more than they can see, and it makes me realize how little we know about ourselves. Our vision is so temperamental, and closed. It's like we live in a box. And I can see outside your box, and I can tell you what you are creating. It's easy for me to see you and your box, and it's harder for me to see my own box. I do see sometimes though. When I let myself.

I am anxious to start yoga again. I feel trapped in my body when I am not stretching on a regular basis. I have decided to join at another studio though; it's closer, and cheaper.

April started barking today. It was so cute, her first bark. She startled herself, and had a "Omg, I can do that?!" expression on her cute little face. It kind of reminded me of us, and how we sometimes feel like we have to keep quiet. If we spoke up from time to time, maybe we would remind ourselves of how loud, how powerful, how ever-changing, we can be.

sweet dreams


m

islands

You are an island drifting sleepily in a continental drift. And I do not know what you will happen to you; i don't know if you will break apart and form many little islands, or if you will be swallowed by the sea. I know what wherever you decide to settle, your escape and your presence will need no explanation. I will feel your skin from mountaintops;a breath of salted fresh air. And when I come to you, I will come home again. I will become the light, the deep, the sinking floating feelings, again.

the strange and the beautiful

This is part of a new series I am working on called "the strange and the beautiful". It's meant to be strange and it's meant to be beautiful. It's meant to make you feel strange and it's meant to make you feel beautiful. And it's meant to be about the strange and it's meant to be about the beautiful. Those are the answers I have.